Choosing a name for your kid is a kind of a big deal. We are both the oldest siblings of our families. Maybe that’s why we get along.
W is the oldest of three. His younger sisters both have names that are gender-neutral-friendly. His youngest sister’s name could be masculine or feminine, depending on how you spell it. His other sister’s name is easily shortened to a gender neutral version. Both W’s sisters are cisgender women and fairly gender-normative in their gender expression. Of course, W is the only one who has a very feminine name. He has one of those names that is just not gender-neutral at all, like Rose or Sarah or Penelope. There is no male name that sounds similar, even. So he has a chosen name that works for him, but mainly goes by his last name, which, as you may have guessed, begins with a “W.” W still uses both his given name and chosen name in different situations, but we both think it’s kind of funny that he is the only one out of three siblings that has a really girly name. Coincidentally, K also has a name that could be gender-neutral or easily modified to be a more masculine name.
Sometimes it’s a problem for W that his name is so feminine, but not for the reason you’d think. Anyone who looks like W, regardless of their gender identity, and has a name like W’s legal name, is going to have some awkward moments. At work, W goes by his legal name, by choice and for convenience. W hasn’t changed his first name or gender legally. He doesn’t feel like that’s something he wants to do right now…possibly ever. W could be out as trans* at work, but it hasn’t been necessary so far and it really doesn’t bother him, because he feels his gender is masculine, but somewhat fluid. He binds and wears men’s clothes at work. He presents as himself full-time, which is a little bit his legal name/identity and a lot of his chosen name/identity and living in that fluid space is comfortable for him.
Now, we should say, that for many trans* people, it is very important and very necessary to change their name and/or gender legally. Many trans* people are very uncomfortable and deeply hurt by being called their given/legal name. That is totally valid. For W, specifically, it just isn’t a big deal. His coworkers usually assume he’s a super butch lesbian and, well, at some point he did identify that way, so he doesn’t really mind.
However, getting a job with a name that doesn’t match your gender expression is another thing. When you show up for a job interview looking like W does, like a preppy 6’1″ dude, things can get awkward…and hurtful…fast. At one interview for a security job at Sears, W showed up for his interview a little early. The hiring person greeted him by his given name, looked at him for just slightly too long, and disappeared for almost an hour. He was left waiting in a hallway. Eventually, the hiring person came back out and told him the position had been miraculously filled and they were no longer hiring. OK… Any gender non-conforming person, whether cis or trans*, can tell you many stories of being treated like a freak. Or being misgendered…one way or another.
So for us, picking a name for our future human that is gender-neutral is pretty important. We don’t have a problem with gendered names and could really care less what people name their kids. But for us, our kid, we want them to have a name that is gender-neutral and unique. As we’ve started talking about names, we have found that even when talking about gender-neutral names, we have different feelings about what would make sense for a kid who is male assigned at birth (a “boy”) or a kid who is female assigned at birth (a “girl”). We like Spencer for a girl (female assigned at birth), but not as much for a boy (male assigned at birth). Those gender things just can’t stay out of our head, though ironically we tend to like names that are more masculine-associated for a girl and vice versa. One name that we just recently decided on, over dinner, that works for any gender, is Remi/Remy (spelling yet-to-be-determined).
We don’t plan to raise our future kid gender-neutral. It’s a nice idea, but it’s just not possible for us. We live in the real world. We want our future kid to live in the real world. They are going to see gender all around them, absorb gender norms whether we like it or not, but we do want them to have options.
We want them to be able to play with green plastic army men, like W did as a kid, or with pound puppies, as K did as a kid. Or, more specifically, we want them to be able to play with both, or whatever interests them. K’s heart will probably break into a million pieces if their future kids wants to be a “pink princess,” regardless of what gender they are assigned at birth, but we want it to truly be their choice.
We want them to be able to make up their mind about their gender expression or their gender identity, or change their mind. If our kid turns out to be gender non-conforming, we want them to have a name that works for their gender expression, whatever that is. Of course, if they want to change their name to match their preferred name and identity, that’s cool with us, but we want to at least try to give them a name that is not hyper-masculine or feminine. So, future kid, as of March 2014, we are calling you “Remi/Remy.” You get to decide what that means for you.
Such an interesting topic to think about. Our daughter has a ‘gender-neutral’ name, as in, we have seen it given to both male and female. Our daughter is also a kid who is content with playing with both babies (dolls) and cars galore. 🙂 I think if you give your child a choice, they will be so much better off! 🙂 I can’t wait to see how this journey unfolds for you.
We are seeing and hearing about more and more people who encourage their kids to play with “boy toys” and “girl toys” and it’s great! The next generation of humans is going to be so cool.
Love the idea of a gender neutral name. I loved Rory for a boy, but Rob vetoed it and our male choice was Alexander. He also threw Quinn into the mix for a boy’s name at one point, which is somewhat gender neutral. I have a friend who named her daughter Cori because her husband really wanted a boy so they cave her a more gender neutral name…
As for toys… we found out that we buy these things for MJ and she is happier with a Tupperware bowl, cups, spoons, and straws. she has gobs of pink toys, but then her Sesame Street guys I feel are gender neutral as well as all her music stuff and blocks. I think she will be getting a blue dinosaur for Easter because I think it is cute…And she got a baby doll for Christmas. She hugs it and pats its back… but then goes all “hulk smash” on it. But then she hugs all her toys the same way. The ball, her puppy, my boot….
This made me laugh because I used to “play” with dolls, too. I played WWF (World Wrestling Federation) with them. I completely relate to MJ. Haha.
Great topic. Also, two of my all-time favorite shows have a main character with the name Rory, one female and one male. It’s definitely one of my favorite names for any gender.
Haha. It’s actually Remi/Remy. I can’t remember things. I’m horrible. But Rory is a cute name.
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We talked about finding a gender neutral name and we have one that is sort of gender neutral, but it has been hard, especially because I am especially sentimental and have a lots of family names. Our response has been to make sure that we have a reserved name if the first doesn’t fit. So, Thea (a family name) and Theo… Etc.
I love that idea, Rachel!